I haven't posted anything for about a month now, because I went on holiday and I have been ill for a while now. I shall try my best to keep my blog updated from now on
I feel I am well versed regarding both issues, one more than the other (you decide which). But each man to their own, I believe whatever doesn't break you makes you stronger. Its easy for me to comment from the outside and say its easy to get over the fear, disappointment, sadness, depression (maybe), worthlessness etc my friends' are feeling, but like I said it easy to 'comment'.
Going through a new bad situation and sometimes an old one(for those of us, that never learn from our first, second or third mistakes, or are still making one right now), has the ability to knock us off our feet and throw our common sense and caution out of the window. But what is a full life lived without any risks being taken?
You need to have the aches and breaks of life, you need to get into the nitty gritty of things, be open minded and spontaneous. I have some aches , but I am still working on the being open minded (only to certain topics) and being spontaneous (no alcohol, no drugs, no bungee jumping or no deep sea-diving), :)
There are so many different legal and morally clean avenues in life to experience and I believe it was one of my new year resolutions to explore them this very special year 2007. By the way I think I have about 40 resolutions or goals as I like to see them.
We all get 12 months, 52 weeks, 7 days a week, 24 hours, 1,440 minutes, 86,4000 seconds daily and we must be accountable for how we use. Oooh how I have wasted time on useless things like gossiping, being moody or cranky, putting things I wanted to do off, not meeting deadlines in work and life, sleeping too much etc.
So much time I have wasted and I can't account for, well not any more I want to be able to do something useful and worthwhile everyday,be it cheering someone up by telling them how wonderful and fabulous they are or thinking about how to make my first million or working towards for degree or learning a new language or designing my first fashion line and actually learning how to sew.
I want to make a difference how ever possible, a good difference not a bad one. We should all think of doing that, also maybe less selfishly. It might not make that difference in our life time, but maybe sometime.
Try something new, do not be afraid to think outside the box, like my title says those who are afraid to fall will never fly. Well I want to fly and I have definitely fallen a number of times and I know regardless and by God's grace if ever I fall again I will fly and soar higher than ever before.
So join me on this quest for improved self-belief and self-esteem renewed.
Adios xxx Till we meet again
Well this is really exciting I guess, my first post and all. I opened my account a couple of days ago but couldn't think of anything to say that was worthy of being displayed on the net. Today is the right day, I have to vent my anger and frustration at nobody but myself.
I am a first year medical student and the whole stereotype of being supposedly being organized and extremely studious is a category I don't fit into at all. I haven't been for the epitome of academic excellence for about six years. I always work last minute, sometimes (or a lot of the times) I miss deadlines for essays or projects or I hand in incomplete work or better yet no work at all. And I go through the same pattern of crying and beating myself up about the situation and promising my self, that I will do better next time. I have carried on with this terrible habit for the past 6 six years.
I have talked to friends about it, teachers, counsellors, mum, brother, you name it and I think I have talked about my problem to about everyone who will listen. A dear friend of mine in a bid to encourage me,always says accepting and acknowledging you have a problem is the first step. Well I haven't progressed from this step, I haven't changed, I haven't improved. Whenever it seems I have repented (this period lasts for about a week), I find myself backsliding and converting back to my old ways. I miss lectures, tutorials, symposiums, practicals, I think I must be setting a record somewhere for the laziest medic ever. If sleeping was an olympic sport I would win a gold medal hands down.
I am just not motivated and focused enough, If anyone could offer a solution to my dilemma, I would be ever so grateful.Yes the reason I am venting today, is because I am stuck and the habit is about to ruin me again and I feel like I was having an internal breakdown. Call me a drama queen or whatever you want to, I have an essay due in a couple of days and I have important exams to prepare a few days after.
There is just so much pressure right now, and I am upset because it is my fault. Here I go again with this self-blaming cycle, and next thing would be making threats about quitting school, cause I don't feel I can hack it and I am not on top of my work.
Before logging on, I had to put my head between my legs and do some breathing exercises, because my chest felt tight and I just felt trapped in my room. I know I could use this time to do some of my essay,but I am having a writer's block. I feel completely powerless and time is not on my side at the moment.
If only I had started a few weeks ago, then maybe I wouldn't be in this pathetic situation. I apologise for my dreary post, believe this wasn't the first post I dreamt of. I had bigger dreams and ideas on how to launch myself. OOOh well things don't always happen the way you want them to.
Will keep you posted and let you know how far I get with my work, by the weekend. Hopefully the next post I deliver will be a lot cheerier.
Adios xx
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